I don't know about you, but I'm feeling 22.
I'm happy, free, confused and lonely at the same time.
It's miserable and magical.
T Swift speaks the truth, guys.
It's probably a lot because I live in Utah, but it's hard to be alone while I watch my friends getting engaged and married and having little humans of their own.
You know, I haven't ever in my life had a long term relationship. I've gone on dates with lots of guys, but relationship...no. Which is fine, I'm not saying my life is sad because I've never had a boyfriend. But, hey I'm so ready for that. And I'm not saying I want to marry the first guy I have an actual relationship with, at all. But I'm so stoked for the time when I find the person that I want to spend eternity with.
You guys are probably like, what spurred this on?
I've actually been wanting to write a post like this since the beginning of the year. But I just had a conversation with a guy I was starting to like. I might have been a little flirty and forward and he said "but...I thought we were just friends." (And if he's reading this, I'm not mad at him, or hurt or anything. It just got me thinking)
Maybe I'm a little bit lonely, guys. That's probably all. Not that I'm not surrounded by wonderful people all the time. I have the most amazing friends and family in my life. But, you know, sometimes you just want to cuddle up with someone who likes you as more than just a friend. Sometimes you just want to feel butterflies when they touch your arm even a little bit. Sometimes you want someone to be there when you cry (probably for no reason) and just hug you and tell you it's okay.
Yeah, sometimes is a lot of the time. But, I'm just saying that I'm ready. It's been a long time since I have even had a little flirtationship with a genuinely nice, good guy.
(Anyone know of anyone I should date? I'm up for suggestions.)
(Katrina Marie)
P.s. I had an idea for a date that I so want to do. Get dressed up all fancy and nice, but go do really cheap stuff. Like dinner at Wendy's off the dollar menu, and mini golfing. That's be so fun. Or I'm weird. Probably both.
Oh my dear Katrina. I love you more then pop tarts! I understand completely how you felt. I didn't have my first REAL relationship until I met Ryan. I signed up for LDS singles and went on a bunch of dates with guys until I met Ryan. We talked and skyped with him for 2 weeks until we went on our first date, and as soon as we started talking in person I knew that was it and cancelled my account. I only paid for 1 month. Internet dating can be scary, but I really liked that website. Just some th ING to try :) Love and miss you!
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